I am constantly yearning for something that is missing. A closeness, a bond with someone. With anyone. I feel as though I’ve become desperate for this. But why? I am surrounded by people who I have a bond with. Hell, I have a husband. I have just felt so distant from everyone lately. I have even begun to miss friendships that ended years ago. Friendships that did not end in a good note. I have wondered why I am not satisfied with those relationships I have around me. What am I looking for that WILL leave me feeling satisfied? Shouldn’t I find that satisfaction within?
I need a change.
I need to learn to love myself. My flaws. My bad habits. My quirks. What I excel at. What I struggle with. My inside. My out. My insecurities. Every freckle. Every stretch mark. Every piece of my heart that feels broken. The sadness. The bitterness. The fear. The joy. The compassion.
Everything that is me.
This is something I astriggle with daily. Ever since I was little I have always felt like people will give up on me. It’s been a fear of mine. Abandonment. The sad thing is I am the one who is quickest to give up on me. 😔